Friday, July 17, 2009

Sometimes Life Ain't Always What It's Cracked Up To Be...

I am generally a fun-loving, easy-going person by nature, and have even been referred to by my friend Jenny as a "cartoon character". But somedays, do you ever wonder how you got where you are? I mean sometimes...life just "ain't" (yes, ain't!) what it's cracked up to be. Cracked...would be the logical word for it sometimes!

This morning my husband had an explosive outburst of rage that seemed to come out of nowhere and it was directed straight at me! (Actually most of my bi-weekly paychecks are direct deposited into our joint checking account and he only gives me the checkbook when it's time to go to the grocery store...and then, I have to listen to him complain about how much I spent and what I bought! I can take a lot, I mean A LOT! before I get mad and come undone). So, I guess the fact that I tried to take $20 out of his wallet this morning is what set him off. So, in all actuality, I guess you could even say that I caused that explosive outburst in him. And...I guess the fact that I said to him,(after he told me to shut up), that I have a "constitutional freedom of speech"... more than likely infuriated him even more. (There was some feeling of satisfaction in saying it, and knowing that he would have never thought to say it, that made me feel better).

I just get sooooo tired of having to ASK for money and explain WHY I want it and WHAT I am going to do with it!- I scrapbook!... I read...and we have a teenager!- what do you think that I am going to spend it on, genius!?!

I can see...(and live it most days)...why the #1 thing that couples fight over and marriages end over, is money. Being a Christian,(you would have never known it this morning!)...it gets hard to stay on the course and not fall off the wagon. I really can understand how people can get so mad at each other that they walk away or hurt each other. Before I knew Christ and accepted him as my personal Savior, I could have really hit my husband over the head with a cast iron skillet and never thought twice about it!(really!)

Life...as we are told, by Christ...IS going to be hard, and it is going to be filled with trials and tribulations...and I guess even the occasional frying pan! :)

7 comments:

Christina said...

ohh girlI feel ya. This is a constant battle in this house but I play the role of your husband. But in a small twist he will selfishly use the money ie Burger King ,cokes , and general crap. Hello I am tying to run a house ,raise 2 girls and keep you happy. When was the last time I got supplies for me? All I ask is that you think before you buy especially after I tell you stop we don't have the flippin money for it!

Little Miss Sparkle said...

Yeah...but girlfriend at least you get to CONTROL the $ and babysit it for a while! :)

Fleming Printing said...

I'm sorry it all happened and maybe he'll have the day to think about it and appologize tonight!

kc_froglady said...

Oy! I can so relate - we constantly are having the money power struggle here...Won't go into details but I recently told my hubby our marriage would be a lot better if we removed the money issues and innocently asked if he would consider changing some things he does. Oh Boy did that lead to some exchanging of words and looks :( I feel for you girly! Keep your head up though and don't ever forget that you deserve some fun money too - it is yours you earned it and feel free to use it! If you work only for bills and house you lose the joy!

Ed said...

if you get two pay checks why not get both of them, or at least one of them put into a seperate account that you CAN use as and when you like. Strange as it may seem, money is the one thing we never argue over. Everything else, yes, but after 40 years together its like water off a ducks back to me now ..

PaperAddictJenn said...

We're on a Dave Ramsey budget. I hate budgets. I'm not gonna touch this one, but I completely understand.

Little Miss Sparkle said...

Who is Dave Ramsey??